daniC23

I've been feeling the same way lately, feeling completely horrible about myself. I have always been really tiny, the most I ever weighed was 114 when I was about 13 or 14 then I got really skinny (never grown since about 7th grade, I'm 5'1) But i lost a lot of weight not trying to at all, I eat alot and my dad was worried but it was just my body changing. For years until I was about 17 I was never over 100 pounds, but I was healthy, always eating, and not too thin at all. I have been a size 0 since I was in middle school, but now I feel like I keep gaining weight. I was on the verge of a serious crying breakdown last week when I realized that I'm gaining weight again. I know people always say they either strive to be a 0 or hate it, but for me its that I feel im getting huge even though I know I'm not. I dont like the feeling of possibly having to buy bigger clothes, especially when summer is right around the corner. Its very frustrating, and I have stomach problems so I keep up on eating as well as I can or I'll be sick. I just need to get back into working out, i would just love to be toned, not loose weight, just not flabby by my cruise in July (hopefully before then too!)