Do you ever go through times where you are not happy with the way you look? Like do you ever find something about yourself that you aren't happy with or you get stressed out more about some imperfection? Sometimes I'm completely happy with myself and other times I'm not.
First, when I was youmger I wanted to dye my hair blonde. I felt very different in school being like the only Asian girl (well, i'm only half korean). And it was like blondes with blue eyes were given more attention - though not that i was jealous because blondes are beautiful too. I guess I just wanted to be more like them. But anyways, after going to college, that totally changed as people were more mature and actually intrigued by my ethnicity. So this was just a phase I went though and I have never wanted to dye my hair blonde since then. Even though blonde hair is attractive, I'm quite happy with my dark long hair
But the problem now is when I see a really thin girl I compare myself and think "well, i need to lose weight to look like that". And I don't mean it in a jealous way or anything. I guess I'm just really hard on myself and I am constantly comparing myself to what I think is "perfect" and then I end up thinking I'm not good enough the way I am. And especially seeing models that are so tiny and like a size triple zero - it makes me feel like i should strive to look like that. And it doesn't help when my boyfriend gawks over these types of girls...
I'm 5'4" and a size 4,5,or 6 depending on the brand and style. And lately I'm unhappy and feel like I should join the Size Zero Club. But other times I like having a little bit of curve and ass, lol. The only thing I like is my chest, though sometimes I even get fed up with that becaus it can be hard to button a top around that area. But I guess I am just not where I want to be. It's so hard to lose weight though, and especially since I love food and hate to exercise (and i'm not trying to complain because i know that cutting down and exercising are needed).
Anyways, my bf told me that every girl goes through not liking something about herself. Is it true or is it just me?
